Welcome to my new site! I've had so many over the course of fifteen-plus years but I hope for this one to stick around for a while. I am a dark-clad (i.e. I wear black all the time) transmasculine metalhead who lives off the very concept and art of telling stories as authentically as possible.
I am merely a storyteller who yearns to share his work and universe with others. Everything I know is through videos, books, and critiques. My dream is to have a small community of people who enjoy my stories and worlds even a quarter as much as I do. To that end, I have started uploading my stories to the internet. I eventually hope to self-publish in the future, but my internet publishing is mainly to create a community.
I specifically write adult stories in a massive conworld called Paneidos. It is a self-aware setting that includes detailed lore that spans over thirteen real-world years. Several stories have content inappropriate for those who may be "sensitive". They're not particularly common but are present regardless.
I am a firm believer in realism and immersion in stories. Limiting oneself from adding elements and themes just because of societal taboos doesn't make any sense to me. I am ready to defend my stance, and I have, even if this stance gets me into "trouble".
And I assure you. It has.
Me in 2021
My computer setup from 2023
Thirty-two years ago, I was born to a Southern father and a Yankee mother. Both were and are devout Muslims (who to this day still try to get me to "return to the faith"), and I was raised as a Muslim girl for 20 years. In my 20th year, I formally left Islam for the sake of my mental health and because I couldn't continue living a lie.
Today, I call myself a deviant, storyteller, worldbuilder, and weaver of words and worlds. As I've put pen to paper before I could fully form sentences, I am a lifelong writer and creator of diverse, original worlds and stories that cater to adults.
I am currently finishing the second novel in my Human Shed Skin duology and working on the Kickstarter for my indie endeavor, Candelabræm! I hope to create it in about 10 years. When I'm not writing, I'm sleeping, working on websites, or struggling to stay alive.
Because, according to "modern" society, that's exactly what I am. Doesn't matter which facet of "modern" society it is—though almost specifically on the Western and Abrahamic side of things which is where I'm most familiar.
By "modern" I mean in the past 200 years or so. 👌🏾
Too many reasons, all somewhat based on "logic". While, understandably, many queer people actively avoid the term "pervert" or "deviant" to describe themself in any capacity due to historical stereotypes saying queer people are perverted, I take the term and own it, in a way. I am a pervert and in more ways than that. Remember this is just for me.
Also, If I had been born in another time or world, I'd call myself a fudanshi or, as we call it more commonly today, a shipper of m/m, which is my favorite romantic or sexual pairing...ever.
There's also the fact that I write dark, taboo subjects with a dead dove mentality. Someone may call me a "pervert" for that—or worse. I've been called worse, and that's abhorrent, but it comes with the territory.
At the end of the day, it all comes down to writing and being my authentic self. Nothing more to say, nothing more to add. Anything else is your problem or projection on your part.
I drink a lot of water, juice, and tea. ☕ I can be seen drinking all the time and even prefer drinking more than eating.
W1, W2, W3, W4, WW4, W5? You've probably seen these abbreviations and noticed them around my main sites or mentioned by me in certain places. Well, I ain't tellin' you what they mean but it is unique to me. If you care enough, you may figure it out yourself...
I support the use of AI images and music, not writing. For more information, you may read my very viscerally angry post about AI-generated images here.
I used to use AI-generated images from 2020 to 2024 and officially renounced my public use on January 7, 2025. In April 2025, I started drawing, so I hope to use my own art in its place...one day. Until then, I make my own graphics or use free use images.